Under Construction?????

I do really hate to see that "under construction" stuff, but I am trying to make this page how I want it and I am not doing very well!

After all, if your not totally knowledgable in all of this, then it is hit and miss and HOPE you get what you THINK your setting! hahahah

So as it evolves.....let me know what you think? Good or Bad........I can take it!

*now where is that stick I need to bite on!*

Too many times we stand aside and let the waters slip away, till what we put off till tomorrow has now become today. So don't you sit upon the shoreline and say you're satisfied. Choose to chance the rapids and dare to dance the tide.~ unknown

As I typed the date in the subject line today, I was shocked that it was already June.

I am mad at June! Sneaking up on me like that! I was not prepared for her coming....I would have baked a cake or something when she arrived, but she came un-announced and blasted right into my life.....and brought the sun for my baby zucchini and herb plants with her! Now she also brought the snails, the weeds and the blackberry bushes that are invading everything and she can take those back, but I guess as some of those old sayings go I have to deal with a little itchy weeds and prickly bushes to have the good stuff.........so WHERE ARE MY GARDENING GLOVES! ~ p.hawkins

there are days when
my armour seems thin
I am unprotected
exposed and raw

I have held it in
and pushed it down
I can do it I say
yet I am not believing

the tiny thing sets it off
insignificant yet crushing
a file, a phone call, a word
it isn't much

then the train wreck seems to happen
shoving, pushing,
scraping and ripping up your insides
there is no mercy

the outside shell breaks
in a million pieces
you cant pick them up
composure is not an option

the phone rings and I am
in the middle of a breakdown
then there is a voice
a voice to rescue me

the voice knows
my weaknesses
my thresh hold
my tears

The voice contains comfort
an appeal to my heart
Sending silken band aids
to soak up the tears

The voice says go sit in the sun
pull a few weeds
look at the roses
smell the sweet peas

Then a sip of cold water
fresh from the hose
my spirit is refreshed
I am now composed

the voice sends a note
to tell me to SMILE
accompanied by a picture
I am safe here and now

my insides still whimper
hanging onto the voice
but my heart feels his comfort
he loves me by choice

Here I go again!

Well, here I go AGAIN............

You know I hate to pack! I really do. The gathering, the laundry, the filling little containers with shampoo.....it is all so tedious.

But when it is all said and done......when the last little bit goes in and I am standing there looking at the bed, suitcases packed and organized and just waiting for me to ZIP EM UP.....it is pretty cool.

Most of you know about the tatoo on my forehead....the one that says "organized clutter person".....so getting packed for a week trip usually takes me about 5-6 hours.........YES I KNOW....but it does. Shorter sometimes if I have had a little time to keep my life in order. But with the deadlines this past few weeks, everything has taken a back seat so sorting through things is time consuming.....so my big soft queen size bead is COVERED in travel gear!

I leave out of here at the crack of ugly, about 4 am on Monday morning for Milwaukee!

BEER BEER BEER BEER BEER
BRATS
BEER BEER BEER!

I plan on having more than a few Reds and Berry Wise and taste as many other new ones I can find! There is a Brew pub place downtown I love to go to....cant remember it, but it is down the street from where the show is and I like it! they have a sampler of beer and last year there was a banana flavored..........EEEEEUUUUUUU it was gross, but the rest were ok.
I just can NOT do the sock beers. You know, the ones that smell like old socks? I cant do the hoppy stuff.........but i am getting better.

OH and I have to go to Kops.......I think that is the name of it. And there is a fab market that i get 10 yr old cheddar to bring home too!


*pam checks her list
plant the herbs
water the garden
dont forget the shampoo
and oh that new camera
and the RENTAL CAR......phew my head is spinning just thinking about it*
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