Sunday, May 18, 2008

Good Morning Everyone!

I am now and then reminded of past unpleasant memories by someone else usually.
In conversations about former companions or past jobs, it is not unusual to recollect how awful that situation was or what happened. However, it is not usually me remembering it. It is the person I am having the conversation with.

For some reason I CHOOSE to remember the GOOD STUFF and let go of the other. I dont do it intentionally, but it happens. It is me.

I am glad I am built that way.

I always look at Today and all the tomorrows as if it is a box layed at my feet every morning. A GIFT!
  • Each day is tied in a ribbon of color. Alive and vibrant.
  • Each box has a tag. It has only one name on it. Pam
  • Inside is a brand new day, a new start, a chance to have a PROMISE and.....all I have to do is ...

OPEN THE BOX!

I wake up with those thoughts running through me.....and it makes me think about who I am...and smile!

Have a wonderful Sunday everyone!!!

Pam~

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Saturday morning..........


Good Morning all!

I WANT TO SEE MY RED SOX!
Well since I dont have my MLB.COM anymore, I cant watch the games..........so I am not a happy girl! Oh well, there is SC at night I guess. *pouting*

Well, it is about 9:30 am.........my biking/beach walking day off! And my first saturday off in AGES? hahah

So here is the agenda: (oh and not nessisarily in this order or I might change my mind or hm whatever!!!)

1. Shower
2. More coffee
3. Bead
4. Pull a few more weeds and make room for plants in baby garden
5. Dismantle the TAX TABLE!!! (yahooo)
6. Make breakfast.....hmmm might do that sooner then later
7. Give Sissy a bath
8. Do nothing! ......i like this item!

Oh and news...........I added a photo album here so you will have to tell me if it is working........or if the shots look like crap or whatever.
I willl also try to add photos of moms new sweet peas!

So have a wonderful day everyone.

Hugs and CHICKEN kisses!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Lupin Fairies!


Thoughts for Thursday, May 15, 2008

When the first baby laughed for the first time, the laugh broke into a thousand pieces and they all went skipping about, and that was the beginning of fairies. And now, when every new baby is born, its first laugh becomes a fairy. ~ James Matthew Barrie

Wow, what a vision! I have been getting up at 5:30 am every day.......and walking on the beach. Its heavenly and godly all at the same time. (remind me to tell all of you about the man living in the VW and the little story he told me about the ocean and how it heals)
But yesturday, I finally got back to my storage and got all the props and photo stuff and seats OUT OF THE VAN, and I got my bike back IN!

So today, I got up, got all the stuff, and headed for the beach road. I rode the bike for almost 7 miles day.........and although I have not been on it for, oh dear, since november??.....it felt like yesturday.

The smell of the beach, the hot air coming in over the mountains (which made me change shirts) and when the wind shifted, the cold-moist-wet air hit me from the ocean. It is hard not to feel ALIVE at that moment.

BUT...........I started to ride......and the roads are overflowing with these bushes that have tall yellow or purple flowers on it.....they look like lupins..(like I know what a lupin is) ........and I am not sure of the name, but they smell like a cross between lilacs and magnolias and sweet sugar. It is intoxicating. and as I rode, the fog cleared and the beach looked like there should be some hotties running along the road headed for the sand and surf!

Every few feet I would come up to another bush of lupins (hahah) and there would be little tiny birds on the ground dashing inbetween the brances. I mean it reminded me of that huge big snowstorm we had in NY long ago....in the 60's I think, where the snow drifts and banks were so tall we made tunnels in and out of them. I can see it now. All of us kids, dashing in and out of the tunnels, GIGGLING and having the time of our lives!
But these little birds, hopping and skipping in and out of the holes the brances offered looked like they were having a blast too.
So for me, those were the little fairies of the lupins.........there, just to entertain me! And it was free! ~p.hawkins

Tuesday, May 13, 2008


Thoughts for Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Happiness is not a possession to be prized, it is a quality of thought, a state of mind. ~ Daphne Du Maurier

I had a friend call me this morning at 5:30 am. (yes I requested it) The damn sun wasn't even out!!! In fact when they called I asked Is the sun out???! They got a reallllllllll giggle out of my sleepy condition.
However, I got up, got a coffee and a yogurt and with my eyes mostly closed, got dressed with what I had set out the night before.
I would have NEVER found my sneakers, or pants or underwear even, had I not got it all out and ready.

So off I went. I get there, eat a yogurt quickly, and prepare my jacket.

1. kleenex
2. nail polish (in case I decide to do them......heck i never get time to do them so if I am on a power walk, waht better place to do your nails?!? well accept when your driving)
3. drivers licence, in case a whale eats me

4. key to get back in car...taken off the big ass ring so it doesnt weigh my jacket down
5. plastic baggie in case I find any goodies that might still be wiggly or icky
6. cell phone to send quick snapshots of my morning adventure or in case a whale eats me
7. hair bobs to tackle my hair once it starts to friz
Lock the car and ready-set-go!

Now walking out to my walk area is like walking on a mattress for EVER it seems, (soft sand sucks) but once I am there..........the ocean just snatches onto my heart and reals me in like a
big pam fish. Standing there as close to the water as I can get......the ocean mist surrounds my head, moistens my skin, and in that moment...........I say my prayers........say hi to Mom and Maggie and Gary........and feel blessed to be alive! ~ p.hawkins